Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton
Most of my white, middle aged and middle class life has been blessed with strong and loving family ties, good friends, creative outlets and a mental attitude that pointed me in the direction of exploration and experience, helping me build who I have become.
Growing up my parents were conservative in behaviors and politics. I didn’t understand at the time the consequences of what that meant. As I grew into adulthood I came to see those conservative values as stifling, creating more complex questions than I had answers for. As a child, it was all I knew and how I thought everyone lived.
From my current point of view, I’ve been blessed to only have a few bumps along my road. These bumps only changed my path, slowing me down long enough to get my bearings, change direction, then move forward.
This website is the current culmination of how my life has morphed from conservative views to what I consider a middle of the road outlook on life. When my life hit what I call a wall, I had some choices. Stand facing the wall, stuck in the close-up view point of its stagnant structure, turn and walk in another direction, or turn around to live in the past.
I chose the sideway glance, knowing I would have to face down some fears and long held beliefs in order to move forward. I still look back, knowing that where I came from helped create who I am. But I don’t live there. Instead my gaze is forward, teaching me that what happened in my past isn’t something to let go of, but something to integrate into who I am becoming, letting it be the past that is part of my present.
I am a seeker. Always looking for a new adventure, whether it be food, a long car ride, challenging a belief I’ve held too long, or meeting someone who lives outside my previously enforced box of personality traits I felt comfortable around. Learning new things and challenging my old beliefs has broadened my view of the world and taught me that when I stop learning, I stagnate and die from the inside out. Repetition, the stop sign of my creativity.
As I enter the age where wisdom is wiser than youth, I feel more alive than when my life was just beginning. As I forge into my future, I challenge my creativity, forcing it to grow and expand as new experiences lead me down a road worth exploring.
The past few years have seen more change than the previous 25. I moved away from rural America into a vibrant city where I was introduced to explorations I never thought possible. The quiet country/beach life replaced with choices and learning experiences only challenged by my ability to stay upright.
My children, moving on with their own lives, and me being single for the first time, has freed me from caring for others, instead caring for myself. This extra time has also allowed me to consider the consequences my life choices have created.
This website is my written and creative exploration of those choices and the consequences I have yet to fully experience.
Thanks for joining me, Melissa